Go and make disciples of all nations.: I'm engaged.

When I left the village back in October 2014, I thought I lost who I was. I had wrapped up my identity not in who I was but in what I was doing. So when that was pulled out from under me, I was lost. Good thing God works for our good.

“Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groaning’s which cannot be uttered. Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)

There are things that we will never know nor understand. In the midst of a trial, we are so consumed with the humanly worries that we don’t know the words to pray. But in the midst of anything, He knows. He knows exactly where we are, how we feel, and what we need. And I love the truth that we, as believers in Jesus know, that all things work together for good for those who LOVE God and called according to His purpose.

And that’s exactly where I am right now. Through a few bible studies I am doing right now, God has been searching my heart, broken me more, and allowed me to see my weaknesses so that I can walk with Him in His strength. The first week of February a sweet moment happened where I realized (again) this life is not mine. In January 2007 I gave it to Him and therefore as Paul says, “to live is Christ, to die is gain” (Philippians 1:21). My life is in His hands. And this excitement, this joy, this communion, as I continue to delight in Him, I’m seeing Him wash away the worldly desires I have as He puts inside me heavenly desires.

Inside, I feel like I’m engaged to the most amazing Man I could ever find. Every chance I get to talk about Him, I feel more full. And the love story, that He wrote to me, the beautiful story of redemption, are the words of Scripture that I can’t seem to get enough of these days.