When I left the village back in October 2014, I thought I lost
who I was. I had wrapped up my identity not in who I was but in what I was
doing. So when that was pulled out from under me, I was lost. Good thing God
works for our good.
“Likewise the Spirit
also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray
for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with
groaning’s which cannot be uttered. Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes
intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God,
to those who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)
There are things that we will never know nor understand. In
the midst of a trial, we are so consumed with the humanly worries that we
don’t know the words to pray. But in the midst of anything, He knows. He
knows exactly where we are, how we feel, and what we need. And I love the
truth that we, as believers in Jesus know, that all things work together
for good for those who LOVE God and called according to His purpose.
And that’s exactly where I am right now. Through a few bible
studies I am doing right now, God has been searching my heart, broken me more,
and allowed me to see my weaknesses so that I can walk with Him in His
strength. The first week of February a sweet moment happened where I realized (again)
this life is not mine. In January 2007 I gave it to Him and therefore as Paul
says, “to live is Christ, to die is gain”
(Philippians 1:21). My life is in His hands. And this excitement, this joy,
this communion, as I continue to delight in Him, I’m seeing Him wash away the
worldly desires I have as He puts inside me heavenly desires.
Inside, I feel like I’m engaged to the most amazing Man I
could ever find. Every chance I get to talk about Him, I feel more full. And
the love story, that He wrote to me, the beautiful story of redemption, are the
words of Scripture that I can’t seem to get enough of these days.
This is delighting.
This is the ultimate
engagement.
Come Lord Jesus come,
so we may have our wedding.
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your
heart.
–Psalm 37:4
But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that
you may do it.
–Deuteronomy 30:14
To obey is better than sacrifice…
-1 Samuel 15:22
