Monday, March 28, 2011

A letter to God

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts. The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Come and see the works of the LORD, the desolations he has brought on the earth. He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire. Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. -Psalm 46


As a hard heart takes over, the desire, want and need for the God of the universe begins to drown. But a promise was made when I accepted You and asked You to dwell in my heart forever, no matter the circumstances, you promised You would never leave me. Have I at times felt you not there, yes, but deep down do I believe that to be true, no. I felt alone, I talked with no response, I acted with no sense of your help present. However, I know you were there, You did pull through, and I am deeply sorry that it took me so long to turn back. Jesus I desire to want you, all of you, and when (like right now) when that desire is not on fire, I want to want you even more. I know I need you, and this is my plea for you to come, explore my heart, mend its broken pieces, and be the glue that it needs to be beautiful again. For You, oh God, are what makes me whole. You knit me together in my mothers' womb and I praise You for the beautiful creation that You have created me to be.

Jesus, You tell me to be still. Your beauty, more magnificent than the sun rise, more extravagant than the most amazing sunset. The colors that you have created within the sky, trees, mountains, waters, plants and flowers.

Dasies. My most favorite flower because of the beautiful color of yellow that pops with the surrounding white petals against any color of backdrop. They stand so tall and any way they bend still produce the most beautiful array of flowers ever. A dasiy is simple, yet elegant. One flower can stand alone and hold just as much beauty as if it were in a bunch. I see myself as a daisy, whether alone or in a bunch, I stand out amongst any backdrop. My colors are vibrant as is my soul, yet I am simple.

I am a beautiful daisy, created by the God who knit me together just as I am. I come to You Father, asking for your sunlight to help me grow up, closer to You. What a beautiful picture You have given me not only of my beauty, but importantly of Yours'. I await your voice. Seek me with all your heart. The title of the last book I just finished. Be still and know that I am God. The verse that just became my soul's only desire.

You are my everything. I ask that You now be the only voice I hear. Draw me close to You.
In Your precious Name I pray,

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Be Strong and Courageous

Within the first 9 versus of Joshua, the Lord commands Joshua to be strong and courageous three times! And as if Joshua didn't get it the first two times, the Lord asks in verse 9: "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous." In these verses Joshua was given all the land that Moses had been promised and was to lead the people of Israel into the promise land. Joshua was given the job, even though originally Moses was the one who had been given the task.

So, God may have said "Here is what I have for you," and He may just be using you as a tool to give the next person all the "land" that you were promised. Your hard work isn't for nothing, for in your obedience, many many people will come to know who the Lord that commanded Moses and out of your obedience will know who that God is. That God, is the only God that exists, the God that created the heavens and the earth, the God that has created a beautiful story and desires for us, out of obedience, to share that story with our loved ones and children. For in these very verses of Joshua, verse 5: the Lord promises; "I will never leave you nor forsake you." That is a strong promise that our God does not take lightly. He our struggles, discouragement, and sadness, God wants to be our strength and give us the courage to continue in the promises He has given to each of us.

He has placed so many different options in front of me. My prayer is that He will guide me and with His Holy Spirit, be courageous and find strength in Him to endure the changes that may arise out of this period in time. I have no idea what even today brings, but my God does. What a great and mighty God we serve. May our God give us the strength and courage we need to fight another day in His name.


Wednesday, March 9, 2011

He asked this only to test him

When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, he said to Philip, "Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?" He asked this only to test him, for he already had in mind what he was going to do. - John 6:5-6

He already knows the plans He has created, put in motion, solely the overseer of His children, asking them to obey Him and then waiting for the correct response. How often as children do we defiantly disobey what our parents say? I know me quite well, someone tells me something and I tend to immediately desire to do just the opposite. Why is that? And why in world would I think to do that with the one true God who has the power to kill off an entire generation, make people hard hearted and has suffered enough that to disobey God brings Him more hurt. There is no one like our God, the King of these people, Lord of this nation, light in the darkness, hope to the hopeless, peace to the restless, there is no one like our God. Light in the darkness, hope to the hopeless, peace to the restless.

I must surrender. Right now I must surrender, in five minutes I must surrender all over again, and again and again. Each moment because with one head turn I all of the sudden feel the weight on my shoulders, however when released know that He carries those burdens and I can then walk in the spirit of which He gives when we surrender.

Father I surrender, I give you my life, my thoughts, my attitude, and my actions. Help me to see Your plan and stay focused, doing exactly what You have called me to do with the attitude that You have called me to do it with. I work for You. With each task You give me, I pray I do it to solely to bring glory to You. May I not get distracted by the emotion and stress that comes with each difficult situation. Focus my heart on You.

I pray these things in Your precious name,

But he said to them, "It is I; don't be afraid." -John 6:20

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Psalm 78: God Provides

I began reading this morning Psalm 78 which gives us the command to teach our children about the love of God so that they will teach their children. The rest of the psalm gives one instance after another where God had provided for His people when they believed He couldn't pull through. Whether it was battle, miracles, division of the seas, burning bush, water from rocks, manna from the sky and grain from heaven, God provided for His people when they didn't see how God could possible come through. That's kinda how I feel at the moment. I'm in this place where there is no way out. I try and try to just live a good life, pleasing to others, with a rare acknowledgment to the one God who knows exactly where I'm at, where I"m going and desires for me to please Him alone.

So I take these versus of scripture and begin the refocusing process. God will provide for me. If He doesn't have me where I am forever, that's okay. Wherever He takes me, whatever He has for me, I shall just follow and allow Him to provide for me.


I shall not turn from the one true God who holds my life in the palms of your hand. You guide my steps, plan my actions, and walk beside me. Father I need You. I need to acknowledge Your presence always, be bold in my faith and seek You with all my heart. Father You hold the answers in your hand as to the life I shall lead. I continue to pray for your guidance. I feel very lost, just going through the motions of the day to day. But this day is new, given over to You, we can accomplish together exactly what You have. May this day be different, may my thoughts be refocused back to You, each step I take in unison with yours so that I may not try to run ahead. Father, guide my words. You say just how powerful the tongue can be and I pray it is used to encourage those around me. Help me to do exactly what You have for me, say what you desire, and then do. Father I work for You. You have me here for a reason, and where You will take me I shall not know.

Jesus I pray these things in Your Holy name,

"You are my hiding place, You always feel my heart with songs of deliverance whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. I will trust in You. Let the weak say I am strong in the strength of the Lord I will trust in You." -Selah, You are my hiding place
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