Jealousy.

Revelation: God is jealous of me and my time.

What a sweet realization.

Here’s the things God has been teaching me this week and how they have all come together on this beautiful Wednesday afternoon with the truth that He is jealous for me.

*Study on Gideon, truth: weak person + God = His plan’s fulfilled

*FB picture, truth: God uses people who fail- cause there aren’t any other kind around.

*Seeking Him study, truth: for my power is made perfect in weakness –1 Corinthians 12:9

*Missionary Call book, quote: Humanly speaking, you should be scared of death, but, then again, you already are dead, aren’t you? Truth: there is no need for faith where there is no consciousness of an element of risk

*Randy Alcorn, truth: I must say no to good things, in order to be available to say yes to what God is calling me to do

weakness. failures. risk. His best.

The beginning of the week I got a call regarding a full time job opportunity. Before I get to far I have to say I’m not looking for work right now. God has been confirming over and over again that my job is to delight in Him (Psalm 37:4) so that He can reveal to me in His timing the desires He has for me. (and anytime I doubt He provides something small to remind me) But I know this is for a season so I don’t want to be irresponsible and immediately say no to something because God has called me to spend time with him.

So when I got the call, I wanted to say yes, in fact every thing I threw at her she had a solution for. And then my head went spinning into all the possibilities (and heart longings) this could fill. I told her I would get back to her by the end of the week after I thought it over and prayed about it.

I think I’ve done a lot more thinking and day-dreaming than I have praying.

Until today.

I connected all the dots with the lessons God has been putting in front of me and a quote came to mind, I looked up the source. It’s the one above by Randy Alcorn… I’ll re-write it because it's that good.

I must say no to good things, in order to be available to say yes to what God is calling me to do.

I couldn’t tell you if this was a test (something that could fill my longing for motherhood and to fit in with the majority of my friends around me) or something good that I have to say no to in order to wait for His best. Whatever the reason for the no, I had this overwhelmingly amazing revelation: my God is jealous for me and my time!

He loves me so much that He wants all this time for me to sit and soak up how special it is to just be with Him. I was honest with him a few hours ago, “God I will take this job and be content with staying here for this time if that’s what you want”…and I meant it. But this is a good thing, I’m sure more good things will come, and  I’m going to trust when the best thing comes along I will know without a shadow of a doubt that that is the yes I’m suppose to make.

My God is a jealous God and oh how loved I feel right now that that jealousy is being lavished over me!